Thank you for joining me on this journey.
This story happened and is still happening to me. I was hesitant about
writing this book initially—a reluctant author, you might say.
Although people urged me to tell my story, I argued with myself that I
would be locked up in a rubber room if I were to explain that the love
of my life, who died twenty years ago, asked permission to come back to
earth and change places with my husband as a spiritual walk-in. After
all, that sounds like the stuff science fiction is made of, doesn’t
it? I certainly thought so.
In the beginning, I didn’t believe any of this walk-in experience. I
found no concrete proof that such a thing could take place, no
black-and-white science. It was a nice idea, but I found it hard to
withhold judgment. As the months and years passed, I slowly began to
trust and understand the undeniable truth of what was happening. Once I
began to open up to my circumstances, my life changed in a big and
I have now come to understand how important it is for me to share this
journey. Despite my initial disbelief that something so incredible was
happening to me—or could happen to anyone, for that matter—as the
story unfolded and the clues became obvious, I began to believe.
This could happen to anyone, anywhere. And as fate would have it, it
happened to me. For those that think miracles and amazing things happen
only to other people—smarter, richer, prettier, or, I guess, just
special people—I’m here as living proof it’s not true. Miracles
and manifestations happen everywhere and with anyone. Even me, an
average woman from a small New England town.
As I share this story with you, I will do my best to be open and candid,
express my true feelings, and share what I have learned about the spirit
side and how things work, as far as I understand. What I have striven to
offer you is my true, authentic, and down-to-earth story, which I will
tell in an informal way—as it occurred. I will share with you how the
walk-in progression worked in my situation, how it made a bit of history
on the spirit side, and even some of the things we were fortunate enough
I offer insight into the thoughts, experiences, emotions, and
perspectives from the physical, earthbound side as well as the spirit
side—an inside look as to why some things transpired as they did, if
you will, and how it felt at the time, the viewpoints, the ideas, the
joy, and the frustrations. Parts of this book are verbatim from
recordings I made while working with a myriad of very talented and
gifted people. The rest is my recollection of how things happened along
the way—and snippets from my personal journal to fill in some of the
All names, except for Jay, are changed to protect the identity of
individuals and to respect their privacy.
My journey is not yet complete and is still unfolding to this day. This
is my interpretation of a story that is true to me. It is my personal
experience, my life story, and my love story. Call me crazy, but I’m
sticking to it.
Welcome to my little piece of the universe.
Chapter One - First Reading
“I have a man here to see you, tall, with dark hair, dark eyes,”
“Is it my husband?” I asked. My husband, Tom, had brown hair,
quickly turning gray, and brown eyes.
“No, not your husband, but close to you. He’s coming in heart to
heart, which means there is a love connection between the two of you.
It’s a very strong feeling,” April said.
I had no clue who it could have been, so I just kept my mouth shut while
“Carolyn, do you know what a walk-in is?” April asked me.
“I have no clue,” I said to her softly, watching her intently.
“This gentleman is here from the spirit side, and he is standing right
next to you. He is very, very upset at how unhappy you are. He knows you
are not living the life you agreed to. You are not living the life you
were meant to. This is not how things are supposed to be,” April said.
“He knows you deserve better than this and has been searching for a
way to make you happy.”
“Really? What a beautiful thought,” I replied skeptically. I
hadn’t been to see a medium for many years and didn’t know what to
expect. But it certainly wasn’t this.
“He’s been around you from the spirit side, and he is frustrated by
what he’s seeing. He said it hurts his heart, watching what you are
going through. He knows you don’t deserve the unhappiness you have in
your life. He wants to come back to you, make your life better.” She
went on. “He wants to be with you again.”
“What the hell?” I was thinking. I didn’t know what or whom she
was talking about. My brain couldn’t understand how this could be, yet
there was something about it that touched my heart, and I was open to
“I can’t express all the feelings he’s bringing me. I can tell how
much he misses you and how much he loves you. It’s overwhelming me,
how intense his emotions are with this,” April said, looking at me
almost in disbelief to get her point across. “He is telling me that he
was the love of your life and you were the love of his life.”
In an instant I knew who it was; it hit me like a bolt of lightning. It
was Jay. I asked April, “Could this be Jay?”
I was met with a serious look from April. “He’s saying, ‘Yes,
could it be any other?’ He seems to be bigger than life and has quite
a personality. I can tell he’s being a bit of a smartass,” April
said, chuckling. “He’s beaming. He is happy you acknowledged him.”
She paused, deep in communication with the spirit side. I waited
silently, my mind whirling.
“He just leaned down and kissed you on top of the head,” she told
“Aww, that’s so sweet,” I said. It was a nice thought, but I
didn’t feel a thing. “So how can this be? Can he really come back to
me?” I asked, hopefully.
“Yes, that is what a walk-in is,” she replied. “It is when a new
soul enters the body as another leaves and goes back to spirit form.
Your soul enters your body when you are born, but with a walk-in it
happens between two people. Both parties have to agree to the
“Really? That’s fascinating,” I said, wanting to learn more but a
little afraid to.
“He seems very serious.” She paused again, eyes searching. “Is
this making any sense to you?” she asked. I think she was as
dumbfounded as I was, trying to understand what was happening.
“Sort of…” I replied, thinking this was probably the strangest
conversation I had ever had. “Jay was my one true love, and he died
when I was in my thirties.”
“He’s asking your permission to do this. To come back from the
spirit side and be with you,” April said.
“What?” I asked in disbelief. “My permission?”
“I’m finding out more…” April said with a faraway look, and
after a moment or two, she continued. “From what I understand that he
is telling me, he has to go to your husband’s soul to ask permission
to switch places with him, and he needs to know you are okay with that.
So he needs your permission. He’s witnessed from the other side how
miserable and angry your husband appears to be, and feels he may just
agree to a switch.” April paused. “He’s saying, ‘I want things
to change for her. I want things to be better. I want her to be
happy.’” She looked at me intensely.
This was incredible. It was so hard for me to wrap my head around this,
yet my heart leaped at the idea that my life could be different and I
could have the love of my life back. “Well, if it really is possible,
I openly give my permission.” Then Istopped to think of the love I had
shared with Jay. It had been a wonderful and special relationship until
life got in the way. If he wanted to come back to me, I would welcome
him, but that was a big if.
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