It filled me with hope and encouragement to write this letter to my
unknown future husband. Somehow it solidified my belief that he was out
there, but I now see how the desire to confirm that belief resulted in a
naiveté that would later wreak havoc on my life.
To My Future Husband,
Hi! First of all, I want to say that when I marry again, it will be
forever. It will be to my best friend, someone whom I completely trust.
You will be someone who is honest, respectful, kind, and loving. I will
screen you very thoroughly before we ever marry. You will have passed
all of my very thorough questioning. For this, I will not be sorry,
because if you are the man who captures my heart, you will be quite a
lucky man, and surely, I will also be a lucky woman. I have been blessed
with the ability to love, and when you finally arrive, I will be
The point of this letter is to let you know that when I marry, you, my
future husband, will have all of my heart. Not part, not half, but all.
I will give everything to you.
I also want to tell you that you are lucky in ways you may not yet
realize. I have spent quite a bit of time learning about myself, and I
know what I can bring to a relationship. I feel that I have a clear idea
of what is required on the path toward a happy life. I know right now,
as I sit here alone, that one day I will find you. We will have a great
marriage, because I will commit myself to making it so, and, therefore,
I will never settle for less. God would not give me less.
The potential to better ourselves and our relationship will always be
present. I desire to have a marriage that is continually growing. I
believe through self-growth, full disclosure, and transparency we will
have the ability to create a very strong bond. It is my hope that by
looking forward, we will continually place the building blocks of life
on a solid foundation. I hunger for that, as much as I hunger for
passion in marriage, life, and love.
Thank you for finally coming into my life. I thank God for knowing we
were both ready for each other, for He has spent a lot of time preparing
us for this moment.
I am happy. I know I am, because I know I will love you. I know you will
be perfect for me, I also know I will be perfect for you. But right now,
in this moment, as I write this, I am just waiting patiently until I
find you…and I am so excited because I know this is going to be great.
Love, your future wife,
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