From Pain to Pleasure
A PERSONAL JOURNEY
What was John to discover in our family? I hoped he would
observe people who cared about serving-both one
another and beyond.
This had been the first step, taken years earlier, in turning our marriage
from withering to thriving. I entered marriage with the idea that
my wife would make me supremely happy, that she would satisfy my
deep yearnings for companionship and love. To be sure, I intended to
make her happy as well, but most of my dreams focused on how happy I
would be when we were married.
Six months after marriage, I was more miserable than I had been
in twenty-three years. Before marriage, I dreamed about how happy
I would be-now my dream had become a nightmare. I discovered all
sorts of things I did not know before we were married. In the months
before we were married, I dreamed about what it would be like at night
in our apartment. I could visualize the two of us sitting in our little
apartment. I would be at the desk studying (I was in graduate school),
and she would be sitting on the couch. When I got tired of studying, I
would lift my eyes, our eyes would touch, and there would be warm vibes
between the two of us. After we got married, I discovered that my wife
did not want to sit on the couch and watch me study. If I was going to
study, she wanted to go downstairs and visit people in the apartment
complex, make new friends, use her time socializing. I sat in our little
apartment alone thinking, This is what it was like before we got married; the
only difference was that I was in a dorm room, much cheaper than this
place. Instead of warm vibes, I felt the ache of loneliness.
Before marriage, I dreamed that every night about 10:30, we would
go to bed together. Ahh-going to bed with a woman every night at
10:30. What pleasure! After we got married, I discovered that it had
never crossed her mind to go to bed with anybody at 10:30 every night.
Her ideal was to come up from visiting about 10:30 and read a book till
midnight. I was thinking, Why didn't you read your book while I read my
book? Then we could go to bed together.
Before we got married, I thought that every morning when the sun
gets up, everybody gets up. After we were married, I found out that my
wife didn't do mornings. It didn't take me long not to like her, and
it didn't take her long not to like me. We succeeded in being utterly
miserable. In time, we both wondered why we had married each other.
We seemed to disagree on everything. We were different in every way. The
distance between us mounted, and our differences became divisive. The
dream was gone, and the grief was intense.
TURNING WAR INTO PEACE
Our first approach was an effort toward mutual annihilation. I freely
pointed out her faults, and she mine. We succeeded in wounding each
other regularly. I knew that my ideas were logical and that if she would
listen to me, we could have a good marriage. She perceived that my ideas
were out of touch with reality and that if I would listen to her, we could
find a meeting place. We both became preachers without an audience.
Our sermons fell on deaf ears, and our pain compounded.
Our marriage did not turn around overnight. No magic wand was
waved. Our marriage began to turn around over the period of about a
year, several years into the marriage. It began to dawn on me that I had
approached our marriage with a very conceited, self-centered attitude. I
had really believed that if she would listen to me and do what I wanted,
we would both be happy; that if she would make me happy, I would
somehow see that it was reciprocated. I had the idea that whatever made
me happy would automatically make her happy. I find it hard to admit,
but I spent little time thinking about her well-being. My focus was on
my own pain and unmet needs and desires.
My search for an answer to our painful dilemma led me to a reexamination
of the life and teachings of Jesus. The stories I had heard as a
child about His healing the sick, feeding the hungry, and speaking with
kindness and hope to the destitute flooded my mind. As an adult, I now
wondered if I had overlooked profound truth in those simple accounts.
With twenty-seven hours of academic studies in the Greek language
behind me, I decided that I would explore the life and teachings of Jesus
in the original documents. What I discovered could have been discovered
in a simple reading of the English text. His life and teachings focused on
sacrificial service to others. He once said, "I did not come to be ministered
to but to minister." It is a theme that all truly great men and
women of the past have affirmed. Life's greatest meaning is not found in
getting but in giving. Could this profound principle make a significant
difference in my marriage? I was determined to find out.
LESS PREACHING, MORE DOING
How would a wife respond to a husband who sincerely sought to
serve her? To discover her needs and desires and to seek to fulfill them?
I began quietly and slowly to do some of the things she had requested in
the past. By now, we were too estranged to talk about our relationship,
but I could choose to take action on some of her previous complaints.
I started washing dishes without being asked. I volunteered to fold the
laundry. It seemed to me these were the kinds of things Jesus might have
done had He been married. When she made specific requests, I determined
to respond cheerfully and, if possible, to do them. In less than
three months, Karolyn's attitude toward me began to change. She came
out of her shell of withdrawal and began to talk again. I think she sensed
that my days of preaching were over and that my attitude toward life was
In due time, I found her doing little things that I had requested in the
past. She held my hand as we walked in public, she smiled when I tried
to make a joke, she touched me as she walked by my desk. Before long,
our hostility was gone, and we began to feel positive feelings toward each
other. I remember the first day I had the thought, Maybe I could love her
again. For months, I had had no feelings of love, but only pain, hurt,
anger, hostility. Now, all that seemed to be gone, and it was replaced
by warm feelings. I found myself thinking that I wouldn't mind touching
her again if I thought she'd let me. I wasn't about to ask her, but I
thought, I wouldn't mind if she wouldn't mind. Before spring the thought
had become reality. Romantic feelings were reborn and sexual intimacy,
which seemed so far away, had become reality. We had come full circle.
We were no longer enemies preaching at each other; we had become sensitive
to each other's desires. Our attitudes had become that of serving
rather than demanding. And we were reaping the benefit of intimacy.
All of that had happened in what seems now a distant past. Now, here
we were with two children and an outsider. We had sought to teach our
children what we believed to be one of the most important ingredients
of a healthy family-an attitude of service. Would John observe it? Could
it be discovered by observation? I sincerely hoped so.
How Families Serve
As I lead marriage seminars around the country, I ask couples to
bring a sack lunch on Saturdays. Since I am usually out of state,
I often ask at the end of the Friday night session, "Who would like
to bring me a lunch tomorrow?" Immediately three or four hands shoot up.
Why do these people freely and spontaneously volunteer to bring a
lunch to a stranger? Chances are they learned the attitude of service as
children. They are eager to serve and they find satisfaction in helping
others. In a loving family, this attitude of service will permeate the entire
family. Family members will serve each other, and they will serve beyond
the family structure.
Cultural critic and bestselling author Bill Bennett lists "work" as one
of the top ten virtues. And the Bible is full of teachings and examples
of diligence and effort-the book of Proverbs alone has dozens of verses
addressing work (and laziness). Most historians agree that Western culture
was built on the work ethic. Work is defined as physical and mental
exertion toward the accomplishment of some worthy goal. And work
starts in the home.
CAN SOMEBODY TAKE OUT THE TRASH?
In the family, much work needs to be done. Clothes must be washed,
folded, and perhaps ironed. Beds need to be made, food has to be
prepared or purchased and served (does anyone still cook?). There is
trash to be stashed, floors to be vacuumed or swept or mopped. Cars
need oil changes, bills have to be paid, clutter cleaned up, pets cared for.
Even with today's smaller yards, someone still needs to mow the lawn,
run the leaf blower, or trim the bushes.
I'm getting depressed, so I am going to stop. We may not have as
much work today as in the frontier days, and many people hire help,
but there's still plenty of work to go around. With most husbands and
more than 50 percent of wives working outside the home, parents have
limited time to get it all done.
Who will do the work? Hopefully, the family-all the family. In any size
family, there is enough work to go around. "The more the merrier," the
old saying goes, but it is usually also true "The more the messier." John's
coming into our family brought more clothes to be washed, more food to
be prepared, etc. But it also brought another worker into the pool.
If work is such a fundamental virtue, then every family member
should certainly learn to work. Some busy families neglect this responsibility,
thinking it's more important for the kids to pursue activities
like sports than it is for them to do chores. Or, the parents reason, "It's
easier to do it myself." But we aren't doing our children any favors by
letting them off the hook. We can delegate age-appropriate jobs, along
with basic training on how to do the job. When our son, Derek, got
to the lawn-mowing stage (which, incidentally, is my favorite stage of
childrearing), he always wanted to mow back and forth. For years, I had
mowed the grass in squares, starting at the outside and working my
way to the middle, which left the trimmings in a nice tiny square in
the middle of the yard-easy to bag. I explained my efficient strategy to
Derek, but it never took. He developed a different philosophy-scatter
the trimmings, and you don't have to bag. His back-and-forth pattern
left light trimmings across the lawn that in twenty-four hours were
hardly visible. I wrestled, trying to decide what was more important:
my perfectionistic, efficient method or his creativity-his individuality.
I opted for the latter. I refused to make him a robot or a clone, and
that's hard for a perfectionistic parent.
Perhaps you are thinking, So there is work to be done, and every family
member needs to share the load. What's new? "An attitude of service" is far
more than simply getting the work done. In a healthy family, members
have the sense that as I do something for the benefit of other family
members, I am doing something genuinely good. Individuals have an
internal desire to serve and an emotional sense of satisfaction with a job
done for others. In a highly functional family, there develops the sense
that service to others is one of life's highest callings.
A healthy family has an attitude of service to each other and to the
world outside the walls of the family. Read the biographies of men and
women who have lived lives of sacrificial service to others, and you will
find that most of them grew up in families that nurtured the idea of
service as virtuous.
Writer Philip Yancey notes that toward the end of his life, Albert Einstein
removed the portraits of two scientists-Newton and Maxwell-from
his wall. He replaced those with portraits of Gandhi and Schweitzer.
Einstein explained that it was time to replace the image of success with
the image of service.
KIDS WHO WANT TO HELP, TEENS WHO WANT TO SERVE
An attitude of service is relatively easy to foster in the emerging child.
As a baby becomes a toddler, she becomes a full-time explorer. In time,
the explorer becomes a builder, and by the time the child is four, the
builder has become a helper. The idea of service seems almost innate. If
the child is allowed to help and affirmed for helping, he or she will likely
be a willing worker well into the first and second grade. In grades three
through six, a child's attitude of service will be greatly influenced by the
models in the family. If the parents have talked about service as a virtue
and have helped the child discover ways to serve family members, and if.
the child is given verbal affirmation for such acts of service, the child will
continue to find satisfaction in serving well into adolescence.
In the wonderful years of thirteen to eighteen, there will be dramatic
changes. If the teenager has internalized an attitude of service, he or
she will reach out in many ways beyond the family circle. At school and
perhaps at church, such teenagers will tend to be servant leaders. They
will spend considerable time helping others achieve. But they may not
be as eager to serve at home. They will likely spend more and more time
away from the family and may even show resistance to family activities.
They are experiencing another of life's great urges the urge to be
free. The whole point is to put distance between the parents and the teen,
space to grow toward independence. Doors to their rooms will be closed
rather than open (actually a wonderful idea to a perfectionist parent).
They are getting involved in activities away from home. The opinion of
friends will be more important than the opinion of parents.
All of this distance and reluctance to continue in the service mode
at home often creates conflicts in the family. But conflicts are not symptoms
of disease; how we deal with conflicts will reveal the health of the
family. In a loving family, conflicts are expected. We recognize that people
do not always think and feel the same way. Certainly, parents and
teens will not see the world out of the same eyes. Thus, we should not be
surprised when conflict arises.
Healthy families learn how to process conflicts. Rather than avoiding
the issues, we seek to put the issues on the table. Teens are encouraged
to give their point of view while the parents listen. Parents genuinely
seek to understand what the teen is feeling as well as what the teen is
saying. Conversely, the teen listens to the parents' viewpoint with understanding
ears. (Does this really happen in some families? Yes. It happens
where there is a high level of security in the family.)
Contrary to some current thinking, teens really do want limits. "Is
there anyone who stands for anything anymore?" a fifteen-year-old
young man asked. "Everyone seems to accept anything, given the right
situation. I wish adults gave us more guidance. Haven't they learned
something during their life that would help us avoid some potholes?"
Limits create boundaries, and boundaries give feelings of security. Security
creates an atmosphere where teens can learn and grow. Thus, when
the teen hits the stage of freedom seeking and may begin to forget the
serving role in the family, parents must respect his or her desire to be
independent but remind the teen that people are always interdependent
and that serving others is a necessary part not only of family life but of
Adults and youth alike are attracted to the young man or woman who
goes out of his or her way to serve others. A number of years ago when
I was directing the college outreach ministry of our church, I encountered
four young men who attended the University of North Carolina.
They had secured summer jobs in our city and had begun attending
some of our activities for college students. I later discovered that they
were all living in one small apartment with a view to saving as much
money as possible during the summer. They had been attending activities
only a couple of weeks when all four of them approached me and
one of their more verbal members told me that they had decided to "plug
into" our church for the summer and they wanted to offer their services.
They would be happy to serve in any capacity I might suggest. Assuming
that they were like many college students in those days, always thinking
about the resume, I thought they were volunteering for leadership positions
in our summer programs. After all, "Volunteer Director" of the
Building Bridges to Youth program would certainly impress a future
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