One day it occurred to me that the warm, squeaky, smelly things
squirming around next to me were my brothers and sister. I was very
disappointed. Though my vision had resolved itself only to the point
where I could distinguish fuzzy forms in the light, I knew that the
large and beautiful shape with the long wonderful tongue was my mother.
I had figured out that when the chill air struck my skin it meant she
had gone somewhere, but when the warmth returned it would be time to
feed. Often finding a place to suckle meant pushing aside what I now
knew was the snout of a sibling seeking to crowd me out of my share,
which was really irritating. I couldn’t see that my brothers and
sister had any purpose whatsoever. When my mother licked my stomach to
stimulate the flow of fluids from under my tail, I blinked up at her,
silently beseeching her to please get rid of the other puppies for me. I
wanted her all to myself.
Gradually, the other dogs came into focus, and I grudgingly accepted
their presence in the nest. My nose soon told me I had one sister and
two brothers. Sister was only slightly less interested in wresting with
me than my brothers, one of whom I thought of as Fast, because he
somehow always moved more quickly than I could. The other one I mentally
called Hungry, because he whimpered whenever Mother was gone and would
suckle her with an odd desperation, as if it were never enough. Hungry
slept more than my siblings and I did, so we often jumped on him and
chewed on his face.
Our den was scooped out underneath the black roots of a tree, and was
cool and dark during the heat of the day. The first time I tottered out
into the sunlight, Sister and Fast accompanied me, and naturally Fast
shoved his way to the front. Of the four of us, only Fast had a splash
of white on his face, and as he trotted jauntily forward this patch of
fur flashed in the daylight. I’m special, Fast’s dazzling,
star- shaped spot seemed to be declaring to the world. The rest of him
was as mottled and unremarkably brown and black as I was. Hungry was
several shades lighter and Sister shared Mother’s stubby nose and
flattened forehead, but we all looked more or less the same, despite
Our tree was perched on a creek bank, and I was delighted when Fast
tumbled head over heels down the bank, though Sister and I plummeted
with no more grace when we tried to make the same descent. Slippery
rocks and a tiny trickle of water offered wonderful odors, and we
followed the wet trail of the creek into a moist, cool cave— a
culvert with metal sides. I knew instinctively that this was a good
place to hide from danger, but Mother was unimpressed with our find and
hauled us unceremoniously back to the Den when it turned out our legs
weren’t powerful enough to enable us to scale back up the bank.
We had learned the lesson that we couldn’t return to the nest on
our own when we went down the bank, so as soon as Mother left the nest
we did it again. This time Hungry joined us, though once he was in the
culvert he sprawled in the cool mud and fell asleep.
Exploring seemed like the right thing to do— we needed to find
other things to eat. Mother, getting impatient with us, was standing up
when we weren’t even finished feeding, which I could only blame on
the other dogs. If Hungry weren’t so relentless, if Fast
weren’t so bossy, if Sister didn’t wiggle so much, I knew
Mother would hold still and allow us to fill our bellies.
Couldn’t I always coax her to lie down, usually with a sigh, when
I reached up for her while she stood above us?
Often Mother would spend extra time licking Hungry while I seethed at
By this time, Fast and Sister had both grown larger than I— my
body was the same size, but my legs were shorter and stubbier.
Hungry was the runt of the litter, of course, and it bothered me that
Fast and Sister always abandoned me to play with each other, as if
Hungry and I belonged together out of some sort of natural order in the
Since Fast and Sister were more interested in each other than the rest
of the family, I punished them by depriving them of my company, going
off by myself deep into the culvert. I was sniffing at something
deliciously dead and rotten one day when right in front of me a tiny
animal exploded into the air—a frog!
Delighted, I leaped forward, attempting to pounce on it with my paws,
but the frog jumped again. It was afraid, although all I wanted to do
was play and probably wouldn’t eat it.
Fast and Sister sensed my excitement and came stampeding into the
culvert, knocking me over as they skidded to a stop in the slimy water.
The frog hopped and Fast lunged at it, using my head as a springboard. I
snarled at him, but he ignored me.
Sister and Fast fell all over themselves to get at the frog, who managed
to land in a pool of water and kick away in silent, rapid strokes.
Sister put her muzzle in the pond and snorted, sneezing water over Fast
and me. Fast climbed on her back, the frog— my frog!—
Sadly, I turned away. It looked as though I lived in a family of
I was to think of that frog often in the days that followed, usually
just as I drifted off to sleep. I found myself wondering how it would
More and more frequently, Mother would growl softly when we approached,
and the day she clicked her teeth together in warning when we came at
her in a greedy tumble I despaired that my siblings had ruined
everything. Then Fast crawled to her, his belly low, and she lowered her
snout to him. He licked her mouth and she rewarded him by bringing up
food, and we rushed forward to share. Fast pushed us away, but we knew
the trick, now, and when I sniffed and licked my mother’s jaws she
gave me a meal.
At this point we had all become thoroughly familiar with the creek bed,
and had tracked up and down it until the whole area was redolent with
our odors. Fast and I spent most of our time dedicated to the serious
business of play, and I was beginning to understand how important it was
to him for the game to wind up with me on my back, his mouth chewing my
face and throat.
Sister never challenged him, but I still wasn’t sure I liked what
everyone seemed to assume was the natural order of our pack.
Hungry, of course, didn’t care about his status, so when I was
frustrated I bit his ears.
One afternoon I was drowsily watching Sister and Fast yank on a scrap of
cloth they’d found when my ears perked up— an animal of some
kind was coming, something large and loud. I scrambled to my feet, but
before I could race down the creek bed to investigate the noise Mother
was there, her body rigid with warning. I saw with surprise that she had
Hungry in her teeth, carrying him in a fashion that we’d left
behind weeks ago.
She led us into the dark culvert and crouched down, her ears flat
against her head. The message was clear, and we heeded it, shrinking
back from the tunnel opening in silence.
When the thing came into view, striding along the creek bed, I felt
Mother’s fear ripple across her back. It was big, it stood on two
legs, and an acrid smoke wafted from its mouth as it shambled toward us.
I stared intently, absolutely fascinated. For reasons I couldn’t
fathom I was drawn to this creature, compelled, and I even tensed,
preparing to bound out to greet it. One look from my mother, though, and
I decided against it. This was something to be feared, to be avoided at
It was, of course, a man. The first one I’d ever seen. The man
never glanced in our direction. He scaled the bank and disappeared from
view, and after a few moments Mother slid out into the sunlight and
raised her head to see if the danger had passed. She relaxed, then, and
came back inside, giving each of us a reassuring kiss.
I ran out to see for myself, and found myself disheartened when all that
remained of the man’s presence was a lingering scent of smoke in
Over and over again the next few weeks, Mother reinforced the message
we’d learned in that culvert: Avoid men at all costs.
The next time Mother went to hunt, we were allowed to go with her. Once
we were away from the security of the Den, her behavior became timid and
skittish, and we all emulated her actions. We steered clear of open
spaces, slinking along next to bushes. If we saw a person, Mother would
freeze, her shoulders tense, ready to run. At these times Fast’s
patch of white fur seemed as obtrusive as a bark, but no one ever
Mother showed us how to tear into the filmy bags behind houses, quickly
scattering inedible papers and revealing chunks of meat, crusts of
bread, and bits of cheese, which we chewed to the best of our ability.
The tastes were exotic and the smells were wonderful, but Mother’s
anxiety affected all of us, and we ate quickly, savoring nothing. Almost
immediately Hungry brought up his meal, which I thought was pretty funny
until I, too, felt my insides gripped in a powerful spasm.
It seemed to go down easier the second time.
I’d always been aware of other dogs, though I’d never
personally met any except those in my own family. Sometimes when we were
out hunting they barked at us from behind fences, most likely jealous
that we were trotting around free while they were imprisoned. Mother, of
course, never let us approach any of the strangers, while Fast usually
bristled a little, somehow insulted that anybody would dare call out to
us while he lifted his leg on their trees.
Occasionally I even saw a dog in a car! The first time this happened I
stared in wonderment at his head hanging out the window, tongue lolling
out. He barked joyously when he spotted me, but I was too astounded to
do anything but lift my nose and sniff in disbelief.
Cars and trucks were something else Mother evaded, though I didn’t
see how they could be dangerous if there were sometimes dogs inside
them. A large, loud truck came around frequently and took away all the
bags of food people left out for us, and then meals would be scarce for
a day or two. I didn’t like that truck, nor the greedy men who
hopped off it to scoop up all the food for themselves, despite the fact
that they and their truck smelled glorious.
There was less time for play, now that we were hunting.
Mother snarled when Hungry tried to lick her lips, hoping for a meal,
and we all got the message. We went out often, hiding from sight,
desperately searching for food. I felt tired and weak, now, and
didn’t even try to challenge Fast when he stood with his head over
my back, thrusting his chest at me. Fine, let him be the boss.
As far as I was concerned, my short legs were better suited for the low,
slinking run our mother had taught us anyway. If Fast felt he was making
some sort of point by using his height to knock me over, he was fooling
himself. Mother was the dog in charge.
There was barely room for all of us underneath the tree now, and Mother
was gone for longer and longer periods of time.
Something told me that one of these days she wouldn’t come back.
We would have to fend for ourselves, Fast always pushing me out of the
way, trying to take my share. Mother wouldn’t be there to look
I began to think of what it would be like to leave the Den.
The day everything changed began with Hungry stumbling into the culvert
to lie down instead of going on the hunt, his breathing labored, his
tongue sticking out of his mouth. Mother nuzzled Hungry before she left,
and when I sniffed at him his eyes remained shut.
Over the culvert was a road, and along the road we’d once found a
large dead bird, which we’d all torn into until Fast picked it up
and ran off with it. Despite the danger of being seen, we tended to
range up and down this road, looking for more birds, which was what we
were doing when Mother suddenly raised her head in alarm. We all heard
it the same instant: a truck approaching.
But not just any truck— this same vehicle, making the same sounds,
had been back and forth along our road several times the past few days,
moving slowly, even menacingly, as if hunting
specifically for us.
We followed Mother as she darted back to the culvert, but for reasons
I’ll never fully understand, I stopped and looked back at the
monstrous machine, taking an extra few seconds before I followed Mother
into the safety of the tunnel.
Those few seconds proved to make all the difference— they had
spotted me. With a low, rumbling vibration, the truck came to a stop
directly overhead. The engine clanked and went quiet, and then we heard
the sounds of boots on gravel.
Mother gave a soft whimper.
When the human faces appeared at either end of the culvert, Mother went
low, tensing her body. They showed their teeth at us, but it
didn’t seem to be a hostile gesture. Their faces were brown,
marked with black hair, black brows, and dark eyes.
“Here, boy,” one of them whispered. I didn’t know what
it meant, but the call seemed as natural as the sound of the wind, as if
I had been listening to men speak my whole life.
Both men had poles, I now saw, poles with ropes looped on the end. They
appeared threatening, and I felt Mother’s panic boil over. Her
claws scrabbling, she bolted, her head down, aiming for the space
between the legs of one of the men. The pole came down, there was a
quick snap, and then my mother was twisting and jerking as the man
hauled her out into the sunlight.
Sister and I backed up, cowering, while Fast growled, his fur bristling
on the back of his neck. Then it occurred to all three of us that while
the way behind us was still blocked, the tunnel mouth in front of us was
now clear. We darted forward.
“Here they come!” the man behind us yelled.
Once out in the creek bed, we realized we didn’t really know what
to do next. Sister and I stood behind Fast— he wanted to be the
boss, so okay, let him deal with this.
There was no sign of Mother. The two men were on opposite banks, though,
each wielding his pole. Fast dodged one but then was snagged by the
other. Sister took advantage of the melee to escape, her feet splashing
in the water as she scampered away, but I stood rooted, staring up at
A woman with long white hair stood there above us, her face wrinkled in
kindness. “Here, puppy, it’s okay. You’ll be all
Here, puppy,” she said.
I didn’t run; I didn’t move. I allowed the loop of rope to
slip over my face and tighten on my neck. The pole guided me up the
bank, where the man seized me by the scruff of the neck.
“He’s okay; he’s okay,” the woman crooned.
“Let him go.”
“He’ll run off,” the man warned.
“Let him go.”
I followed this bit of dialogue without comprehension, only
understanding that somehow the woman was in charge, though she was older
and smaller than either of the two men. With a reluctant grunt, the man
lifted the rope off my neck. The woman offered her hands to me: rough,
leathery palms coated with a flowery smell. I sniffed them, then lowered
my head. A clear sense of caring and concern radiated off of her.
When she ran her fingers along my fur I felt a shiver pass through me.
My tail whipped the air of its own accord, and when she astonished me by
lifting me into the air I scrambled to kiss her face, delighting in her
The mood turned somber when one of the men approached, holding
Hungry’s limp body. The man showed it to the woman, who clucked
mournfully. Then he took it to the truck, where Mother and Fast were in
a metal cage, and held it up to their noses. The scent of death,
recognizable to me as any memory, wafted off of Hungry in the dry, dusty
We all carefully smelled my dead brother, and I understood the men
wanted us to know what had happened to Hungry.
Sadness came from all of them as they stood there silently in the road,
but they didn’t know how sick Hungry had been, sick from birth and
not long for the world.
I was put in the cage, and Mother sniffed disapprovingly at the
woman’s smell, which had been pressed into my fur. With a lurch,
the truck started up again, and I was quickly distracted by the
wonderful odors flowing through the cage as we moved down the road. I
was riding in a truck! I barked in delight, Fast and Mother jerking
their heads in surprise at my outburst. I couldn’t help myself; it
was the most exciting thing that had ever happened in my whole life,
including almost catching the frog.
Fast seemed overcome with sadness, and it took me a moment to
understand: Sister, his favorite companion, was gone, as lost to us as
There was, I reflected, much more complexity to the world than I had
supposed. It wasn’t just about Mother and my siblings hiding from
people, hunting, and playing in the culvert. Larger events had the
ability to change everything— events that were controlled by human
I was wrong about one thing: though we didn’t know it at the time,
Fast and I would meet up with Sister again in the future.
Copyright © 2010 by W. Bruce Cameron
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